Okay so this week has been absolutely crazy....well the past couple weeks really. Everything is turning upside down. Dikota decided to move out of his house because he doesn't get along with his grandparents, so now he is living with his step-dad in Tecumseh. It has been the most hectic thing in my whole life. Dikota wont talk to his grandparents so they call me, but I'm not really sure what I am supposed to say to them. Oh yeah, and he turned in all of his stuff for school, so right now he is a drop out. That is the thing that makes me the most mad. People might not know it but he is really smart. He can sit there and ramble off facts like no ones business. He wont use it though...he could be such a success story if he could just use it and not let all of his talent go to waste. Anything he tries he is good at, and I dont know how to get through to him that he has all this potential. He knows he has it he just doesnt care. I dont know how to make him care and see that all of this is really important and he needs to finish school and use everything he has going for him. If anyone has any advice I'm up for it. Unless its telling me to just leave him alone and I deserve better.
That is another thing about the past couple weeks that has really bothered me. Everyone thinks they know better for me than I do myself. That really bothers me. If I wanted to break up with him I would believe me. I care about him...I just dont get why other people cant see that and wont just leave me alone about it. I'm pretty sure that it is my decision on if we stay together or not. Yeah we have had our fights but who hasnt. There is obviously a reason we are still together so there is something there. Why cant people just be happy that we are happy with each other. We have our days when we cant stand each other, those really bad days. But I would take 100 bad days for every good day that I get with him. When its a good day, its a really good day. And nothing can take that away from us.
It's Been a While
16 years ago
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