Letting Go

Graduating from high school is a huge step for anyone, but for me it seems like it's going to be extra hard. All of the other seniors are saying how they can't wait to graduate. Me on the other hand, I'm just not ready, I want more of it. It's hard because most of my friends are underclassmen. There are only a select few people in my grade that I really am going to miss. I mean of course I will miss everyone, but there are those certain people that stand out more than others that I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to get along without them. Letting go has always been a hard thing for me. I'm not a big fan of change like this. Cause its seems like whenever its a big change like this I lose someone close to me and it takes a while to get them back. I'm going to miss my sophomores, though, thats for sure. I'm not sure why but I love most of those kids to death! Especially Milan, I really dont know what I'm going to do next year when I cant see her everyday.

Summer

This summer is going to be jammed full. I am going to be working monday through friday verifying at country market. Its really boring, but the people I work with are pretty sweet, so that makes it fun. On the weekends I'm hoping to be hanging out with everyone. Mostly Milan though probably, and Dikota will probably be in the mix somewhere. Garrett is leaving for boot camp on May 18, so I wont get to see him until he graduates on August 7. Thats like 81 days, and thats a really long time, but we move into school like a month after that so it wont be that bad. I'm just pretty much try to stay as busy as possible this summer, and hang out with whoever I can before school starts.

Spring Break!

Spring break was pretty fun. Almost my whole family was in Florida for spring break. We were even in the same room. IT was so crowded in there. There were 7 adults and 2 children under the age of 4 in a condo with 3 beds. It was terrible. I had to sleep on the floor. Not fun at all. I didn't really do much while I was down there, pretty much just laid on the beach and got tan. That got boring after a while. Don't get me wrong I LOVE the beach, but there is only so much I can take. I started to miss all of my friends back home, it seemed like I was on myspace a lot of the time just so I could talk to them more.

Photography

I liked the photography unit. I love taking pictures, its a lot of fun. I take pictures all the time, and now I know how to take better pictures. In photography it was only bad if you didnt do the assignments, other than that it was pretty great. It tested our ability to be creative with what we took pictures of. I would have liked to learn more about how to enhance the pictures better in Photoshop. I feel I didn't really learn much in that aspect of it. We learned how to fix them, but not really how to make them stand out.

College

So I have finally decided on where I will be going to college. In the fall I will be attending Eastern Michigan University. I'm going to become an Eagle. It should be pretty fun. I went up there and visited last weekend. The people there are great. I already made like 5 new friends that I will be able to hang out with while I'm up there. Plus my best friend goes there, you might know her, Erin Brugger. I miss her so much, I'm not used to not seeing her all the time still and now everything will be good because we will be at school together. Plus my friend Brandon is up there too. Brandon and I have been through a lot together concerning Erin, so it is going to be tons of fun.
This summer is going to be a challenge to get through first though. Brandon, and one of the new people I met, Garrett, are going off to boot camp for the Marines. They leave on what is suppossed to be one of the best days ever, May 18. And if you didn't know May 18 is the seniors last day. They will be gone until August 7, or possibly the 14. Its going to be so hard. I talk to Garrett everyday on the phone, and text him during the day. It will be quite the challenge. The only way I get to talk to either Garrett or Brandon is through letters. They both promised me that I will get lots of letters, well more from Garrett than Brandon, but thats okay with me. Just as long as I hear from them that is all that matters.

9 days til Senior Trip
59 days til Seniors Last Day!

Social Network

I social network. I have a myspace, and a facebook that I update like everyday. I didnt know that was what a social network was. But I only have people I really know in my social network. Like I will add people I dont know to my friends list, but I really only socialize with the people that I know. I think having a social network is pretty cool, becuase they can teach you things about people, like your friends, that you would have never known before.

Friends

Tonight the boys play their last home game for the regular season. Its kind of sad, last gauranteed home game for the seniors before the playoffs start. This is all so depressing, everyone else cant wait to get out of here, but I dont want to leave, not yet. There is still so much I want to do with my friends before we all part our ways and go to college, and yeah yeah we still have the summer, but its not the same. Then we will be graduated, and we wont be classmates anymore, of course we will still be friends, but everything will be different. Alot of people are going to Ferris, still not sure where I will end up. It seems like everyone else has everything figured out about where they were going to college at least. I dont want to leave my friends behind. These are the people I have been with since the beginning, its going to be so hard to see everyone leave. They say the friends you keep are the ones you make in college, but with this grade, the graduating class of 2009, its a little bit different. We always hang out, every weekend. We cant leave each other for good, we will probably end up back here together raising our kids the same way we were raised, but I dont want it to be that long before we are all tight again. I just wish we didnt all have to live in seperate cities, or even states once the fall comes, I wish we could just stay our tight-nit little group!

Driving in the Car

When I'm in the car by myself I always sing. I think everyone sings in the car. Its the only really safe place where other people can see you but they cant hear you. I always wonder what other people are singing in the car too. Are they on the same station? Is it a good song? a bad one? Are they a good singer? I ask alot of questions. It makes the ride more interesting. I think they other thing that people do is eat or talk on the phone. It is amazing how many people eat in their cars. I think its so hard to concentrate on eating and driving. The phone is a little bit easier, mine is normally on speaker but other people do not know how to drive with their phones at their ears.

Other Peoples Opinions

It has been an interesting week to say the least. Dikota and I broke up on Monday, didn't talk to eachother Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. Got back together Tuesday night. And were told how stupid we were on Wednesday for getting back together. I really dont understand why people have to be so mean about stuff like this. Yeah we both know that we have issues, and we don't always get along the greatest, but if we are willing to sacrifice and work on this whole thing then it shouldn't be anyone elses business. I hate it when people put their two cents in when it doesn't really matter and it is not their place. Like my mom, she grounded me because she thinks we aren't good together so she is trying to keep me away from him, but every other person in my family that has brought someone home and introduced them has been welcomed with open arms, but because I am the baby everyone is way to critical and won't let me just live my life. They all got to so isnt it my turn? I mean I'm 18 and graduating in a few months, everyone just needs to let go and realize I'm a big girl and I can handle myself.

Education

Things that I would like to be different in my education are just more varieties of classes. I wish I could like take french, or and astrology class. I dont have that many issues with what we are learning. Its all important. More variety is better, it gives people a better opportunity to explore things that they like and be able to figure out what they would like to do as a career when they leave high school.

Relationships

Okay so this week has been absolutely crazy....well the past couple weeks really. Everything is turning upside down. Dikota decided to move out of his house because he doesn't get along with his grandparents, so now he is living with his step-dad in Tecumseh. It has been the most hectic thing in my whole life. Dikota wont talk to his grandparents so they call me, but I'm not really sure what I am supposed to say to them. Oh yeah, and he turned in all of his stuff for school, so right now he is a drop out. That is the thing that makes me the most mad. People might not know it but he is really smart. He can sit there and ramble off facts like no ones business. He wont use it though...he could be such a success story if he could just use it and not let all of his talent go to waste. Anything he tries he is good at, and I dont know how to get through to him that he has all this potential. He knows he has it he just doesnt care. I dont know how to make him care and see that all of this is really important and he needs to finish school and use everything he has going for him. If anyone has any advice I'm up for it. Unless its telling me to just leave him alone and I deserve better.
That is another thing about the past couple weeks that has really bothered me. Everyone thinks they know better for me than I do myself. That really bothers me. If I wanted to break up with him I would believe me. I care about him...I just dont get why other people cant see that and wont just leave me alone about it. I'm pretty sure that it is my decision on if we stay together or not. Yeah we have had our fights but who hasnt. There is obviously a reason we are still together so there is something there. Why cant people just be happy that we are happy with each other. We have our days when we cant stand each other, those really bad days. But I would take 100 bad days for every good day that I get with him. When its a good day, its a really good day. And nothing can take that away from us.

Empowering Technology

A piece of technology that makes me feel powerful would probably be my car. When I drive my car I feel like the only person in the world. It is a great release for me. If something is bothering me, I just get in my car and go for a drive. It helps so much, that way I don't have to deal with the stress all the time, I can get away. My car is great, even though I wrecked it a couple weeks ago, it still works, its still there when I need it. It is a very reliable piece of mechinery.